| Welp. I thought I was done with xanga forever, which is actually kind of sad, so I guess it's nice to be back making a post? Anyways. I was doing some thinking tonight.. and for some reason I decided to post to get it all out.
So what was I thinking about you ask?
Shame.
It plagues us. It controls us. Or, it's lack of also controls us. It's really kind of interesting.
I was just thinking you know.. I just know so many people, with these crazy dark secrets. Everyone has them. And I was thinking, what if, just what if we all gave them up and told everyone everything? Just blurted it all out. Got it all out in the open.
"Into marvelous light I'm running, out of darkness, out of shame"
Or are we? We sing it, of course, but do we mean it? Honestly, I have a lot of things I don't like to talk about, although I'd be perfectly willing if someone asked specific questions, and that song really helped me to be able to rid the shame of things, to feel the freedom Christ came so that I may have.
But really, why do we, well really, why do Christians I guess is who I'm writing about, keep these things to ourselves? Easy, fear. Fear that we are the only one on earth that has ever delt with this, fear that we are the only ones who have ever walked down that road, fear of what others would think, just fear.
"The biggest lie you've ever been told is that you're the only one to walk down this road."
But seriously.. in the church, there are so many "unspoken sins" things we don't talk about, because of the belief in this lie that we are the only one. We make these things seem like they are just horrid and only heathens struggle with these things. There's so much pressure to be perfect, we set ourselves up for failure. And ultimately damage our witness. Can you imagine what life would be like, if everyone just was open about everything? If we had no secret lives, no secret pasts, just talked about it all. I think we would begin "adding to our number daily". There is such a judgemental image from the church, of how life is, and how we all have to pretend that we fit that mold. We don't have struggles, Jesus took them away. It's crazy, it's like, in order to make things appear better.. we end up worse off than where we would have been. If the church actually accepted the church... everyone, flaws and all, our range of who we could reach, would be so expanded. It would be crazy! People not judging, but truely being love to one another, truely showing compassion, humility, and every other character trait of Christ to one another... well, I just think things would be a lot different. I just suppose.. Satan has really found a hole in the hedge and really penetrated us, binding us all from the freedom Christ came to give. The past didn't happen so that we can bear these burdens all our lives. These things happened so that we can be shaped and molded and crafted into the men and women God has called us to be through Christ Jesus our Lord and Savior!
I'm not sure if ANY of that made sense, or if ANYone will read that.. but i just wanted to write it off. I don't really think I got what I was really trying to say off.. I'm kind of distracted with the wedding and other things going on in my life. But.. there's a scratch at the surface. Have a marvelous day, folks. |
